Dear Blog, I have a confession to make.
Sometimes I am not so fond of you. Some days I just don’t like you. Not in the least. Some days you’re not my pretty little corner on the Internet so dear to my heart. There, I said it!
Some days I don’t feel like writing a single line. I don’t want to push myself simply because I am supposed to publish content regularly.
I know, people won’t come back to my blog if it’s not up-to-date. My followers will lose interest if they don’t see anything new for a week or so. And yes, my readership will never get bigger if I don’t work hard enough.
Yet, some days I don’t want to write. It’s not that I don’t respect all those readers who stop by and read my stuff. I sincerely appreciate every single person who has ever read a post on Simply Marina. Actually, readers are the very reason I don’t publish every day or a few times a week. Because I’d rather publish a piece when I think I have something to say, and not every Monday, Wednesday, Friday, etc. when I haven’t got anything.
Articles that teach you how to blog would say this is not serious. No, it is serious. I take it all very seriously. All that blogging thing. But I really don’t see the point of sharing all my family’s trips to different places, for example, unless there is something else in addition, a message.
There are fellow bloggers who share a lot about their family life and I love their blogs: Katy from Hot Pink Wellingtons, Laura from Dear Bear and Beany, Yvonne from Double the Monkey Business, and Laura from Life with Baby Kicks to name but a few. Check out their posts, they write beautifully.
Blogging about family lifestyle is cute and I enjoy reading such pieces, but it’s not for me. I consider myself a mummy blogger but I didn’t launch this blog with the intention of discussing my son’s childhood in detail. To tell the truth, I even have concerns about sharing pictures of him. This is why there are so few of them on the blog and my social media profiles.
There are other fellow bloggers who create beautiful content, publish wonderful recipes with stunning pictures and do it often. Elizabeth from Elizabeth’s Kitchen Diary and Tracy from The Culinary Jumble among my favourites. Not me. I wish I was one of them but I’m not. And I admire them for their consistency and perseverance.
“What prevents you from being as prolific and successful as they are?”, you would ask. I’ll give you my honest answer. Blogging takes time, too much time. Every day. It’s not your 9-5 job. It takes possession of your thoughts, of your sleep, of your mornings and evenings. It demands from me more than I can give. I am not ready to devote all my days to it, that’s it.
Sometimes, it takes me hours to complete a blog post, to choose an appropriate image, to edit it all, to promote my content. Social media, linkies, threads, comments, e-mails… – they’re all time-consuming.
I don’t want all this, not all the time. It could be overwhelming. It steals from my family time, from my other hobbies, from myself. Well, I’m not writing this post to complain about being a blogger. It’s my own choice whether to run this blog or not.
In fact, I enjoy blogging. I love my little blog. It’s not that popular nor does it look gorgeous or professional, but still, I love it. I really do. It means freedom, it means joy, it’s the home of my writing attempts.
But I prefer to stop for a while when inspiration is gone. Because it’s not about seeing yet another post published. I don’t say all my posts so far are deeply meaningful or worthwhile. However, I have written them all in a moment of inspiration. I can’t write anything decent if I don’t feel it. If it doesn’t come from the heart, why to do it in the first place?
This is how I understand blogging. I apologise to my readers for not publishing frequently enough. My blog is not so full of posts and stories but it defines me – quality over quantity, being passionate about writing over writing because I have to.
Simply Marina, simply me. 🙂
I am sorry, my dear blog, but some days I don’t feel like writing. Life happens, inspiration is lost, thousands of other reasons… Some days I pay you no attention. And that’s OK, because family first.
Thank you all for reading! I love having you here.